Day 208: When Your Heart Isn't In It Anymore
I tried to write yesterday. I really did.
I could only muster two paragraphs.
A phone call with a founder that I can call a friend revealed the following: my heart isn't in it anymore.
The money for writing for Forbes was never really there, but my heart was. That's what kept me going: my passion for writing stories in the publication.
It's not there anymore. I tried to write yesterday, but I can't blame it on "writer's block." That's easy to fix - you just have to force yourself to start and keep momentum - the rest takes care of itself.
The truth is I've lost my passion for writing for Forbes. I don't think it will come back.
I've been thinking a lot of mixed (read: negative) thoughts as I reflect on my track record writing on Forbes. I won't go into details.
I would rather end my writing on a high note. Instead of rushing these four full profiles, I'm going to spend a week on each of them. Given my schedule, I should finish up with detailed, full drafts by the end of July.
It's better for the story if I take it easy. I want these last four to be the best stories I've ever written, which is why it's better to take my time instead of rush and put unnecessary pressure on myself.
I don't have anything else to prove to myself. All I want at the end of the day is to be proud of what I publish for each of these last four stories.
For now, I'm going to enjoy the rest of my vacation and take it easy. I deserve it.