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Day 36: Requiem For A Dream

I'm only giving myself today to resolve my emotions and move on.


Frankly, I've never been lacking in excitement as I am right now for the next chapter in my life.


I say this even though I have a lot to be grateful for in such turbulent economic and social times.


Yet, the immense feeling of disappointment dulls any sense of gratitude.


Joy eludes me.


Hope disappears.


What remains is resignation with shades of bitterness.


I feel like my dream is dying. It's painful to witness and bear. The future I've wanted for years is slipping away.


I only have today to resolve these feelings of failure, shame, and ultimately disappointment.


I have to move on. (I'm not sharing my feelings on here anymore.)


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