Day 47: Yes, I'm Stressed Out
I'm spending too much time coding, and not enough time on F2F.
It's stressing me out because I have a lot of stuff to get done for F2F (and Forbes as well, which doesn't help matters).
I'm stressed because I find myself in a weird spot in my life. The next "chapter" is already laid out for me, which is going to business school.
Yet, 1.5 years since graduating, I still don't have a concrete way to pay for it. I'm stressed out because I'm not dedicating enough time to one or two things to help me raise the funds to attend b-school.
Here are my dilemmas: I'm good at coding, but even better at writing. Writing pays little, but coding pays a lot.
I want F2F to be its own thing for its own sake (plus the money from growing a newsletter at scale), but I don't want my technical skills to atrophy as I spend the necessary time developing the newsletter.
I know what I want to do with my 20's: be a content creator for a living. But I don't know what's the best way to get there.
I have time, roughly 2.5 years to be exact, but I don't want to waste it. I don't want to make the wrong choice here and end up taking up debt.
Deep down, I think I know what path I need to take. I'm not sure I have the conviction to see it through though.
Best to think on it.