Day 79: I Feel Stuck
I wasn't feeling so great yesterday, primarily because of a lack of sleep. Fortunately, I'm well-rested today after eight hours of sleep. I'm feeling much better.
Yet, I feel stuck. This is a feeling I've had for years now. I don't know really how to explain it.
It's weird since as a professional, full-time engineer, things are going fine. I'm progressing in my career as I should. Totally content.
Personally, I feel that I'm stuck. I feel the same way about my writing on F2F and Forbes to a lesser extent.
The obvious cause is a lack of consistent sleep - I frequently run out of energy during the day to do other things. The second, and more relevant reason, is that I'm trying to do too much in a short amount of time.
Just like my lack of focus on what to develop on the newsletter (which I've gotten a lot better about now), I'm struggling to figure out how much time I should be spending on each daily skill I'm trying to build. I also don't have a solid process of in what order should I work on each skill first.
The lack of sleep and organization kills my chances of making progress. That's why I feel stuck, and always talking about the same things in an endless loop.
I recognize that if I'm working on a lot of different things at once, I can only make small amounts of progress in each thing, each day. So, I need to plan for a longer period of time to accomplish goals by a certain deadline. In college, I was terrible at working on things in little chunks day by day - I always did everything at the last minute!
Yet, when I think about it, doing things little by little, day by day, is probably the closest to most natural (or best) way of getting things done (or learning). When you think back to high school or even college, you didn't learn all of a course's syllabus in one day or month. You learned a little by little, and you had time to do the homework little by little. I think that's the way I should approach my goals.
Accomplishing things little by little, while getting enough rest to give me the energy to do so.
This isn't a recipe for transforming into some improved version of myself overnight.
All I want to feel is that I'm making real, tangible progress towards my personal and professional goals once again.